Monday, August 17, 2009

why is it that you've chosen this path? we just don't understand why you keep choosing to partake in these high risk activities...do you know the consequences?

yeah..i do actually. im just smart about it(..well as smart as i can be) so that in all reality, its very unlikely i'll get into much trouble.

you promised we wouldnt have to worry about this when we caught you back in january
we just don't know what to think anymore, how do we know when youre telling the truth?

...

blah blah blah.

well at least im happy.




i feel alive.
i'm sorry i'm not sorry.
you've said it yourself. things aren't going to change anytime soon.
this is me.
for now.


thanks for not doing anything this time.

p/s, i'm so relieved you know. i was starting to get really sick of lying.

Friday, August 7, 2009

4 people

i'm not ready, but i want to be.
i miss you terribly, but i wish you were no longer in my thoughts.
you hurt me...kind of alot. you say you've had your heart torn out too many times to risk getting hurt...
so why is it that you have no consideration for what you may have done to mine when you left?


i can't wait to see you. but the thought of leaving there when its over...
i dont want to think about that.
i would give anything to know exactly how you felt.
i constantly wonder what it will be like to see you again.
why is it that i always think you'll make everything better, and you do?
what will i do when you don't?



i liked you. you ruined that. i left because my eyes opened. you ignored that, and now you want to hang out again. what is it you want? a friendship or a second chance? i dont know that i can give you either...would you be able to understand that? if you did somehow understand...i might be able to give you that second chance. of course then you would know that i couldn't. i could try to be your friend though. maybe.


i'm sorry. that is all.


i like you. realize that.
i love you. don't ever leave.
i'm scared of you. it would be best if you left me alone.
i lied to you. but you'll never know.